(yeah, this is top 5 for longest ever!! enjoy your weekend!)
I am someone who strongly hates going back on what he has previously said and I hate it even more when in a sense, I have to tell a woman that she was right....so maggie was right. I didn't figure out the entire thing, but at least my xanga page is now in the same layout as the rest of my website and I can continue to use it (xanga) and make it easier for all you subscribers.
Now, since I’ve returned home, I have kind of dropped off of the radar and pretty much gone incognito from the world and friends, but 1. That’s kind of just what happens when you take that next step in life and 2. I haven’t had too much going on to tell people about.
With China falling through that last week of Searcy and pushing and pushing for a way to get there, there is no possible way that I can see myself making it to that country to work. At this point, I am saying that I will be going for the 2008 Olympics there, maybe not to work, but at least to watch. Traveling is my forte and I will continue to make it so throughout my life.
So I stayed in Denver for a few weeks after graduation chillin with my family there and I was honestly having a blast and absolutely love it there. I dropped resumes and such to a bunch of different places, but not being familiar with the market there, I just didn’t know what to expect. The day that I packed my car and was all ready to leave was when I got some type of a networking lead, but have yet to ever hear back from those people. I made it back to the DC area in two days from Colorado (don’t ever do it!) I chilled in Indy one night with my buddy and that was fun, but decided not to waste my time getting back (why, I don’t know). It was around Maryland/West Virginia when I was asking myself why I was going home? But I just kept pushing and drove on back. After getting back, I made my trip into Atlantic Video, which is where I interned for the past two summers, to see what openings they had or had wanted to create. It’s so appealing to work there, but the major downside is that I know that if I do, that I will not get paid enough money to live in this area and that I would be better off still living at home, which is not attractive. The graphics job that I trained on over the summer was still open when I got back, but was supposed to be filled soon; which it has now been filled. That is pretty much what I want to do there, so I decided to keep on looking. I still try and go into there about once a week or once every two weeks to say “hello” to people and to pretty much maintain my contacts and relationships with people there. Everyone seems to appreciate me well there and it is a nice thing to go into when I get overly bored.
I have been home over a month now, actually, it’s coming up on two months here pretty soon. The first weekend that I was home, my parents made a trip to Kissimmee, FL to visit my grandmother and my dad brought back a funny joke that he left on my doorknob one day. Instead of ‘do not disturb’ he got a ‘don’t wake until spring’ and today is seriously the first day that I woke up and truthfully heard birds chirping outside and oh how beautiful it was (at least from the windows-I never made it out). So I’ve turned into a bum…my dad calls it being “in transition,” whatever. I have probably sent out over 500 resumes to various different places all over the world. I have applied for jobs in New Zealand, Tel Aviv, Hotel Jobs in Greece, and even working as an Audio-Visual Guy on a Cruise Ship (I should just join the Navy). I have broadened my areas of where I want to live to pretty much wherever I get a job, there I go! I looked very strongly after I got back to Virginia to going back to Denver. I continue to do so today and have a decent contact there now that I think that I may be able to pull, but I haven’t YET…I feel myself being pulled here, as much as I hate this place, I can honestly read the signs and I hate that I can, because it shows that I am needed to live here not only for job purposes, but for strengthening his church purposes as well. I have no clue if it would be a stepping stone or a long term thing of working here, but I will find out more later in life.
I have had one interview and this was for a job that I do not even remember applying for. Around the beginning of March, I got a call from a guy and he starts talking to me and telling me how I applied and asking me what I’m doing these days and when I can come in. So I ask him “Where is this at?” and he screams into the phone like he’s a radio announcer telling me I just won tickets to a sold out timberlake concert, “NBC” and I say “oh” having no recollection of what I have gotten myself into. So, I go and look up this job announcement online that I assumed was the job that I applied for and got pretty scared for what I had done. So…I went to the interview, I figured that it couldn’t hurt to have interview practice and I went in their with that attitude, not the attitude of oh, I’ve got this wrapped up. I stopped in at Atlantic Video on my way to this place to chat with people and to fill them in and I guess it helped in getting my confidence up and getting me ontop of my game, because wow, I spanked that interview. The guy sits across his desk and says to me that it is unheard of to get an opportunity like this when you’re my age and I said “I know.” So, I walk out of the building and that’s when I turn into a teenage girl having won the tickets. First, mommy is called and now that I know more about this job, I can fill people in, so it turns out that the graphics system that I trained on at AV put me at an advantage and so they were looking to hire a new person with these types of skills but it’s a different computer program, which isn’t that big of a deal. So…I basically just had an interview at NBC Nightly News (DC Bureau) and where they do Meet the Press and The Chris Matthews Show. Meet the Press is the #1 show in its time slot on Sunday mornings, but it is certainly a top show! How in the world I had this fall into my lap, I still have yet to understand, I think God is bribing me…
So I am told that if I don’t hear from the guy by the next Wednesday to call him, so I do, I’m told I’ll be called later on that week…I’m not. I call the next Wednesday…Still nothing…Got my hopes up buddy, I don’t like sitting on the edge of my seat in suspenseful movies and I especially don’t like this. So, I sent an e-mail asking where we stand and three weeks after the initial interview (which for private sectors is unusual) I finally get a chance to make it back in and show my skills at this graphics system, which it turns out that this show that I worked on, on Wednesday is easier than the Around the Horn show that I did as an Intern last summer (who would’ve thought). So this is a Union job and I am required to join the union when I start, so we’ll see how that benefits me in the future. My guy ended up going sick the day that I went in for that preliminary assessment the other day, but I called the next day to see what was up and apparently things had changed a little bit, but that he is going to bring be in this coming week to do paperwork and such; so now I just sit tight and wait for the glory life to begin.
It’s funny now with that doorknob thing hanging there, don’t wake ‘til spring, that I will start working around when spring comes. It’s tough when you come out, having planned to do something else and not having a job already lined up to snag something…jobs don’t open when people graduate college, they open whenever and It’s just been a time of chillin and waiting and really practicing patience for something to open up. If for some reason this NBC gig falls though, I will not hesitate that pull this Denver contact that I have and move in a heart beat!!! I may just go and find a dead beat job there.
In the matter of this job stuff coming up, I was accepted into this online graduate program that I had been looking at doing for the past year. I know that it will give me a leg up on others for a management position later in life and also will help me if I ever decide to go and teach some of my skills at University level later on. This that I am going to start here in a few weeks is a Master of Arts at Savannah College of Art and Design. This school has a very good reputation and I am really looking forward to pursuing this. Somehow, I got some type of a scholarship for my portfolio that I was required to submit, so that is nice and should help somewhat. The major that I will be pursuing will be Broadcast Design and Motion Graphics…right up the alley of this job that I will be starting soon, so it’ll be a double whammy and maybe I can use work projects for class ones, that’d be even better!!
So this post is already long and I might as well continue on typing…It’s the weekend and everyone should have time to read this on Saturday.
There’s a part of me that feels that I came back here unconsciously thinking and analyzing if I really should. Growing up, I lived in a different county and area that’s 20 miles south from where I am now. After freshmen year, my rents moved here to Lorton, which I have benefited from greatly, but is not an area that I particularly enjoy, only positives is that it is easily accessible. My best friends from high school have since joined the military and moved on from this area. Every time that I have been back here since I left I have either been: dating someone strongly, working 7 days a week to where I didn’t have time to think about what type of friends I had, or my stays have been so short, that I am gone and back somewhere where I can chill with people again. This is my first time being back home when I haven’t been busy and been running strong and I don’t like it. Amazing, isn’t it? I’ve gotten really bored here in the past couple of weeks and it’s just not fun. I don’t have anyone to chill with here at all. No friends. Sure, maybe once I get moving and out into my own place I may, but it really sucks. There’s a formation of some type of young adult group at my rents congregation, but none of those people really care to chill outside of a worship assembly. I have one there who is the one of the only people that I’ve done stuff with. There’s a dude from AV that I chilled with once when his brothers band was playing across town and that was cool, but he’s like my brothers age, 27 and that’s great and all, but there’s a small gap there. There’s one chick who has since transferred from Harding to a school up here and I’ve tried to chill with her before, but another person who seems to want to have nothing to do with me. Honestly, it’s kind of discouraging. I’ve got one buddy who is a Senior at Harding and is from Guatemala, who’s coming here for spring break and that’ll be fun, though that’s only a week. There’s some other state schools that are on break right now and I know some younger people from congregations where I used to live that will be home, but I doubt that they’ll wanna chill. I have my buddy Karl from Harding who may be down to move here when I tell him I’ve got a job and am getting my own place and stuff, but we’ll see. It just sucks not having any buddies around. I mean I wouldn’t really in Denver, but people are more open and accepting there than they are here. I don’t know, I mean I guess things will begin to pick up in time, but It’s just been a very lonely couple of months and I really do hope that this will not continue, because I like people too much and hanging out and “fellowshipping” with people. I do have these high hopes that this will change. I have very mixed feelings about this summer when people return and operate as the church’s intern where I may be a member at by then, which in turn, may force me to worship else where for that time being. I have had a lot of time to myself and too much time to think and too much time to sit, staring at a blank screen.
Doesn’t it suck when we don’t have a clue on what will be the next page holds and when we are to turn it? Sure, it’s a faith test, but it’s tough. At this point, I’ve been waiting far too long wondering what’s next and I’m ready to dive head first, even if it’s a concrete slab that I smash into and I am force to pick up my pieces and fix things.
It’s the “Uses Time Wisely” Grade I fear the most; It’s my want, my need to get away from this coast.
It’s the mindless days, that all pass; When will the day come, the day’s coming, alas!
So I sit and wait, trying my best to pass time; while all these people, waste me at my prime.
It’s the TV Guide, that’s my best friend; it’s sitting doing nothing, where I can spend.
It’s this maze that I’m in, looking forever a way out; I’ve exhausted all options, baby, I’m in a drought.
It’s the ups and downs, It’s the curvy roads; It’s my mind full of boredom, that explodes.
I must find a distraction, though there seems to be so few; I can’t turn back, you’re not really you.
It’s been a little while, since I wrote a rhyme; but it’s all I got, cuz I can’t spend a dime.
Sure, the rents are there to help me out; but I want to grow up, its what life’s about.
I want to get movin, I wish something would change; It’s spring time now, I’ll take that exchange.
They were a crazy fall and a dark winter; but it’s a new season, time to pull the splinter.
So life will pick up and things will pull through; for in the end, you always show you’re true.
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*rubs it in your face*